Saud: "Ahh well ana shklii broo7" Then he whispered: "I hope it's a birthday to remember."
It is Saud, it really is. :')
It is Saud, it really is. :')
I made my way to the door and turned back and looked at him one more time then went inside.
The next morning, I went out for a birthday breakfast downtown. I needed a day to clear my thoughts.
I sat on a table facing the street and ordered myself a cup of tea.
I checked in on foursquare, and shut my phone off because I wanted this day to be about my journal and myself.
I cherish these moments, moments of complete clarity and focus. The sounds of the cars passing, people talking, birds chirping. It was a beautiful start to a beautiful day.
I put my pen down, and placed the palm of my hands on my chin, and looked at the people.
"Hey there stranger." Familiar words from a familiar voice.
"Back to the stalking thing I see." I said while still looking ahead.
Saud: "Well, it's not stalking if you make it that easy for me to find you." I could feel him smiling even though I wasn't looking.
Me: "Shhh, this is my favorite part you're ruining it."
Saud: "What is?"
Me: "People-watching."
He didn't say anything after that he just sat beside me.
We stayed quiet for 10 minutes or so, then he broke the silence.
Saud: "Lama."
Me: "Yeah?"
Saud: "I really really like you."
I looked at him. I couldn't share with him the fact that I like him too until I knew everything.
I don't want to be another girl in his book. I wanted to know more.
Me: "Tell me about your previous relationships."
Saud gave me the sexy smirk I saw the first day I saw him: "5lna n5lii el ma'6ii bl ma'6ii."
I looked away, then I looked back at him. I couldn't fight my curiosity! Shswi mlgoofa!
Lama: "Bs... abii a3rf."
Saud: "Okay." He sighed. "Esh tbeen t3rfeen?"
Lama: "You said only one of them was serious right?"
Saud: "Yeah."
Lama: "Did you love her?"
Saud: "I did."
Is it possible to love more than once?
If there will ever be an "us" will I be compared to her? The way he loved HER?
If there will ever be an "us" will I be compared to her? The way he loved HER?
Lama: "What happened?"
Saud: "B e5t9ar?"
Lama: "Ee."
Saud: "I found out enha m3 wa7d '3eeri."
How could anyone ever cheat on him?????????
Lama: "I'm so sorry, ma kan g9dii aft7 jroo7 gdeema, but I just thought..."
He interrupted me: "You thought I cheated on her?"
Lama: "Well, yeah."
He looked down, I could see sadness on his face.
I shifted my weight to face him, and held his hands.
Me: "I'm really sorry."
He lifted his head up and said: "She really hurt me, you know?"
Me: "I can't relate, but I can only imagine how hard that must've been for you."
Saud: "A3rf eni 78eer bs elthanya kant a rebound, bs anheeet el3la8a lma 7seet el bnt bdt tit3lg, I didn't want to lead her on, she deserved better."
Me: "We all make mistakes, the important thing is to learn from them. Ahm shai 7seet bl '3ala6 o wgft el mw'6oo3 gbl ma y5rj mn sy6rtk."
He gave me an approving nod.
Kan mask yadi o y7rk his thumb zai kthaa.
He noticed that I was wearing the ring he gave me, but he just looked at it and smiled and didn't say a thing.
Saud: "What do you say to a walk on the beach?"
Me: "I can never say no to that"
I got the bill, and like a gentleman he wouldn't let me pay even though he didn't order anything.
He was wearing blue shorts and a white button down shirt with a few buttons open from the top that showed his chest hair bss kan 7lo his chest hair mo ktheer mogrf don't worry. =))
I was wearing a long very light pink maxi dress, a big white hat, and sandals.
We walked 25 blocks to get to the pier, but an hour with him felt like a minute. :')
He stopped at an ice cream truck and got us two.
Saud: "Thoogiii mraaa ltheeth."
He held up his spoon with a ton of ice-cream on it.
I did something I never ever ever EVER did before.
I tasted it, and it's ice cream so I should be even more disgusted.
Is it weird that it didn't feel wrong? Is it weird eni ma tgrft and I tried it after he did?
Me: "Yuummmm, minnnn jid!!!"
He smiled. I'm sure he remembered that I didn't let him take a sip from my tea.
What are you doing to me Saud? :'( <3
He held my hand, and we were walking down the shore. :')
I felt like one of those girls from the movies, I couldn't believe it.
"7lmii ykoon beeti bls3oodya 3la baa-" but before I could complete the sentence, I saw him lighting his cigarette.
My face expressions quickly changed, and he noticed.
Saud: "3adi?"
Me: "Laa." I said very annoyed.
He threw it away, and even though I knew he's going to smoke when I'm not there, it was still a nice gesture.
My face expressions quickly changed, and he noticed.
Saud: "3adi?"
Me: "Laa." I said very annoyed.
He threw it away, and even though I knew he's going to smoke when I'm not there, it was still a nice gesture.
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A week flew by. Saud and I have been inseparable. Even when we all sit as a group, him and I always find a way to sneak away from them.
He held my hand, and kissed my fingers.
He lifted me up when he saw a puddle so my shoes don't get dirty.
He put his arms around me through a whole movie.
He looked at me the way any woman would want to be looked at.
He put his head on my lap and let me play with his hair while he told me about his sisters.
Is "really like" turing into something more?
But... There's always a but.... So far, I don't see any flaws. No man is ever this perfect and that frightens me.
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It was lunch time on a Monday afternoon, and the whole group sat down at a table by the window.
I stood in line to get food to join them.
"Law sm7tii."
Me: "Hala?"
"6a7 mnk." It was my favorite pen.
I smiled: "Shkraannn, it's my favorite pen!"
He smiled back, and put his hand out: "Naif."
I shaked his hand: "Lama."
Naif: "'3reeb ma ged shftk hena mn gbl."
Me: "Wala ana."
He didn't look away, so I did.
Naif: "Sorry 3la el bja7aa bs 3yoonk jmeelaaa."
I couldn't help but blush "Well aren't you the charmer."
Saud's voice interrupted: "Fii mshkla hina?"
I looked at Saud confused.
Naif: "La."
Saud: "Ma aklmk ent. Lama is this guy bothering you?"
I still had the same question mark on my face: "No!" I said in complete certainty.
Naif: "Esh mshkltk?"
"Walla ent mshkltiii." Saud said while pushing Naif.
And right then and there I realized, there it was; The flaw!
"Yabooy e5tk wla esh salftk shtbii?" Naif stated.
We were both quiet.
I wanted Faisal to be here! I knew he was the only one who could help this situation.
Naif: "Is she your girlfriend? It's okay dude I'll back off."
And out of no where Saud punched him in the face.
I couldn't help but feel sorry for Naif, he didn't do anything wrong!
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-Nurses office-
I was soooo embarrassed and pissed off.
Naif was unconscious on the bed, I was on the chair, and Saud was on the chair in front of me.
Saud: "Lama I..."
Me: "Saud mabi asm3 wla klma, mafi wla shay ybrer eli sweeta. He was talking to me. Are you gonna do that to every effing guy who talks to me? What is everyone going to think now? What is Faisal going to think?"
Saud: "Oh y3n hatha kla 5ayfa mn rdt f3l 7beebk Faisal."
I was shocked by what he said. He knew how I felt about him, and that really hurt. That he would think that little of me.
I looked straight at him and said: "Please go out."
A week flew by. Saud and I have been inseparable. Even when we all sit as a group, him and I always find a way to sneak away from them.
He held my hand, and kissed my fingers.
He lifted me up when he saw a puddle so my shoes don't get dirty.
He put his arms around me through a whole movie.
He looked at me the way any woman would want to be looked at.
He put his head on my lap and let me play with his hair while he told me about his sisters.
Is "really like" turing into something more?
But... There's always a but.... So far, I don't see any flaws. No man is ever this perfect and that frightens me.
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It was lunch time on a Monday afternoon, and the whole group sat down at a table by the window.
I stood in line to get food to join them.
"Law sm7tii."
Me: "Hala?"
"6a7 mnk." It was my favorite pen.
I smiled: "Shkraannn, it's my favorite pen!"
He smiled back, and put his hand out: "Naif."
I shaked his hand: "Lama."
Naif: "'3reeb ma ged shftk hena mn gbl."
Me: "Wala ana."
He didn't look away, so I did.
Naif: "Sorry 3la el bja7aa bs 3yoonk jmeelaaa."
I couldn't help but blush "Well aren't you the charmer."
Saud's voice interrupted: "Fii mshkla hina?"
I looked at Saud confused.
Naif: "La."
Saud: "Ma aklmk ent. Lama is this guy bothering you?"
I still had the same question mark on my face: "No!" I said in complete certainty.
Naif: "Esh mshkltk?"
"Walla ent mshkltiii." Saud said while pushing Naif.
And right then and there I realized, there it was; The flaw!
"Yabooy e5tk wla esh salftk shtbii?" Naif stated.
We were both quiet.
I wanted Faisal to be here! I knew he was the only one who could help this situation.
Naif: "Is she your girlfriend? It's okay dude I'll back off."
And out of no where Saud punched him in the face.
I couldn't help but feel sorry for Naif, he didn't do anything wrong!
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-Nurses office-
I was soooo embarrassed and pissed off.
Naif was unconscious on the bed, I was on the chair, and Saud was on the chair in front of me.
Saud: "Lama I..."
Me: "Saud mabi asm3 wla klma, mafi wla shay ybrer eli sweeta. He was talking to me. Are you gonna do that to every effing guy who talks to me? What is everyone going to think now? What is Faisal going to think?"
Saud: "Oh y3n hatha kla 5ayfa mn rdt f3l 7beebk Faisal."
I was shocked by what he said. He knew how I felt about him, and that really hurt. That he would think that little of me.
I looked straight at him and said: "Please go out."
Saud: "A9ln knt 6al3." and he slammed the door shut.
I stayed there waiting for Naif to wake up to apologize.
An hour later he did.
He tried lifting his head: "La la the nurse galt you should stay down."
I got the ice pack and placed it on his right cheek.
Me: "Esma3 Naif walla asfa."
Naif: "La 3adi ma sweeti shai. Bs s2al what is he your boyfriend or something?"
Should I trust a complete stranger, and tell him my secret?
Me: "Umm.. I guess so, but we're kind of keeping it a secret. Momkn ma t3lm a7d?"
He nodded, and placed his hand over my hand. (The one that was holding the icepack)
I quickly pulled my hand away.
Me: "Okay aham shai enk kwys, I'm gonna leave now."
There wasn't a sign of Saud that whole day and that really worried me.
I shared my worry with the girls.
Me: "Banat he didn't send me a dm, and he didn't tweet all day!"
Jenna: "Ma knt abii a'6yg 9drk but I saw him leave the campus when you were at the nurses office."
I hugged my pillow tighter as the thoughts were eating up my brain.
I looked at the clock. 1 AM, I sighed while looking at my 0 dms.
What he said was hurtful. Maybe this is for the best?
I was pissed, but I missed him.
Before my brain was able to complete another thought, I heard two knocks on the door.
I wore my robe, and opened the door.
Me: "Saud? Esh jals tswii hina el sa3a 1!"
He held my hands and said: "Lama."
There was a different look on his eyes, a look I hadn't seen before. A look of sorrow.
I pulled my hands away: "Saud eli glta hurt me, has the past week meant nothing to you?"
He sighed, and put his two hands in the air signaling me to put mine in his, and I did.
Saud: "Lma abi agoolk shai 3ni. Lama ana mara '3yoor 5a9atn m3 ele a7bhom, o lma a39b ma athmn kalami o agool ashya2 ma ag9dha, I'm trying I swear I am. B'3eet a'3yr hatha el 6b3 before we got serious but when I saw him talking to you today I couldn't help myself, it was like I was possessed and I couldn't control myself. And about what I said about Faisal, knt lsa '3yran mn el7fla o I was afraid eni ma aw9l mgama 3ndk. I'm sorry Lama."
"You." He paused for a second. "You Lama are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I don't want to lose you."
I heard all the things he said, but my mind froze on "eli a7bhom".
I hugged him: "You never will." I could feel him let out a huge breath of relief, as if a huge weight was lifted off his shoulders.
I deliberately ignored the Faisal part, because Faisal holds a different place in my heart than Saud does. Faisal is like a brother.
He held me tighter and carried me. That was our thing. :$
Me: "Now go! Gabl ma a7d yshoofk o yshtki."
He put his hands on both sides of my head, kissed my forehead, and said: "Sam7teeni?"
I smiled: "Sam7tk, now go."
I watched him leave, and thought to myself; So he gets jealous? And he gets angry... But, everyone gets angry... There are many worse flaws out there...
Right?
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I stayed there waiting for Naif to wake up to apologize.
An hour later he did.
He tried lifting his head: "La la the nurse galt you should stay down."
I got the ice pack and placed it on his right cheek.
Me: "Esma3 Naif walla asfa."
Naif: "La 3adi ma sweeti shai. Bs s2al what is he your boyfriend or something?"
Should I trust a complete stranger, and tell him my secret?
Me: "Umm.. I guess so, but we're kind of keeping it a secret. Momkn ma t3lm a7d?"
He nodded, and placed his hand over my hand. (The one that was holding the icepack)
I quickly pulled my hand away.
Me: "Okay aham shai enk kwys, I'm gonna leave now."
There wasn't a sign of Saud that whole day and that really worried me.
I shared my worry with the girls.
Me: "Banat he didn't send me a dm, and he didn't tweet all day!"
Jenna: "Ma knt abii a'6yg 9drk but I saw him leave the campus when you were at the nurses office."
I hugged my pillow tighter as the thoughts were eating up my brain.
I looked at the clock. 1 AM, I sighed while looking at my 0 dms.
What he said was hurtful. Maybe this is for the best?
I was pissed, but I missed him.
Before my brain was able to complete another thought, I heard two knocks on the door.
I wore my robe, and opened the door.
Me: "Saud? Esh jals tswii hina el sa3a 1!"
He held my hands and said: "Lama."
There was a different look on his eyes, a look I hadn't seen before. A look of sorrow.
I pulled my hands away: "Saud eli glta hurt me, has the past week meant nothing to you?"
He sighed, and put his two hands in the air signaling me to put mine in his, and I did.
Saud: "Lma abi agoolk shai 3ni. Lama ana mara '3yoor 5a9atn m3 ele a7bhom, o lma a39b ma athmn kalami o agool ashya2 ma ag9dha, I'm trying I swear I am. B'3eet a'3yr hatha el 6b3 before we got serious but when I saw him talking to you today I couldn't help myself, it was like I was possessed and I couldn't control myself. And about what I said about Faisal, knt lsa '3yran mn el7fla o I was afraid eni ma aw9l mgama 3ndk. I'm sorry Lama."
"You." He paused for a second. "You Lama are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and I don't want to lose you."
I heard all the things he said, but my mind froze on "eli a7bhom".
I hugged him: "You never will." I could feel him let out a huge breath of relief, as if a huge weight was lifted off his shoulders.
I deliberately ignored the Faisal part, because Faisal holds a different place in my heart than Saud does. Faisal is like a brother.
He held me tighter and carried me. That was our thing. :$
Me: "Now go! Gabl ma a7d yshoofk o yshtki."
He put his hands on both sides of my head, kissed my forehead, and said: "Sam7teeni?"
I smiled: "Sam7tk, now go."
I watched him leave, and thought to myself; So he gets jealous? And he gets angry... But, everyone gets angry... There are many worse flaws out there...
Right?
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